“The sound of your exhale is pure excellence. Without it my heart is broken 1 more time”.

The words are so simple to say yet they barely come out of the slight darkness that I’m in.

If I could just kiss your forehead 1 more time.

If I could just hold you 1 more time.

If I could just tell you I love you 1 more time.

If I could just skate with you 1 more time.

If I could just watch you breathe 1 more time.

If I could just lay on you and listen to your heartbeat 1 more time.

If I could tell how happy I am to see you when arriving from work 1 more time.

If I could drive around with you in the back of my truck 1 more time.

If I could watch you chase squirrels 1 more time.

If I could bathe you 1 more time.

If I could hear you move when you’re sleeping 1 more time.

If I could watch your run in your sleep 1 more time.

If I could see your smile 1 more time.

If I could watch how you adored your brother Mufasa The Prince 1 more time.

If I could stand while you lean on me 1 more time.

If I could dance with you 1 more time.

If I could paint with you 1 more time.

If I could travel with you to another city and state 1 more time.

If I could jump and play in the snow with you at 3am 1 more time.

If I could I could just lie next to you 1 more time.

If I could feel you lick my tears away 1 more time.

If I could stand next to you while looking at Manhattan 1 more time.

If I could rescue you 1 more time.

If I could just meet you 1 more time.

If you could just please fill this gaping hole that’s in my soul and identity 1 more time.

Please forgive me Nala just 1 more time.

I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU!