Self-Esteem – “Sometimes 1 must dress up in order to address issues and circumstances so that he or she may find or at least get back to an address once lived”…

“Towards the end of my dinner date, I sat at my table delicately sipping a light and tasty wine titled “Marenco Scarpona, Moscato D’Asti”. As a nice sized dinner party was leaving, apart of that dinner party an older lady with a red outfit on with curly textured hair like that of Ronald Reagan’s wife sauntered by and said “hello”. I said hello back and “what is your name”? She said, “Claire”. Claire looked at me for just a moment with cheer and a short grin. There wasn’t much else to the conversation. But as she departed, I chuckled to myself. A number of things must have been going through her mind as I smiled and went back to my wine. She might’ve thought how delightful it was to see a young man enjoying a night out by himself or that a lady stood me up or maybe even that I was lonely. “That made me even more jovial inside.” Little did Claire know that I wasn’t lonely and nor did anybody stand me up. I was there for “me” and “I” simply investing in my heart regarding value.

Ok, so be honest. How many of you have ever taken yourself out to eat before? “Raise your hand”! Be honest.

I love companionship but I also love putting a suit on and going out on dates alone. It gives me an opportunity to discover and conquer me. We’re such malleable creatures of habit and within those words I am delighted in how God made no mistakes creating us perfectly with many flaws and weaknesses. Nevertheless, I simply state that what you do, what you think, and what you say consistently makes you who you are. If you lack confidence, then go out and get it. God has put many pieces of puzzles around us to invent confidence, curiosity, and identity in Him. I take myself out because I love “me”. I indulge in joy and self when it comes to dating myself in the midst of a society and thoughts misunderstood. It’s about what I think and feel about myself. I am scarred and flawed with sin just like you. I have my own insecurities and moments of ugliness. But, the epitome of self worth is a reflection of “love” no matter what. It’s a lack of concern for what others around you think about “you”. Who are you? Who do you want to be? It’s so cliche, but how do you actually tell someone about what makes you happy when you don’t know entirely what makes you happy. God gives us rest and refuge in Him. You can rest assured that who you are in God is enough and that’s all that matters. Don’t be embarrassed to do what you want to do and be in life. “The more you discover about how God lives through you and made you in His image, the more you discover about what’s around you.” The more you can understand that you have a gift to create what’s around you. “You can”! I do it everyday and I’ll be doing it again this upcoming weekend. “Won’t you join me alone”?

P.S. – Just a thought. This is not about not needing friends, family, or people in general. People are very vital in our lives and that is simply necessary. But, 1 must learn to find joy and pleasure in his/her own soul and senses. Life is short. Very short! Use it and do what’s right with it before “Coltrane’s horn blows a final blow”.